I've known forever

How do you figure out your purpose?

Every since I was able to solve 100 piece puzzles without the help of my big sister Ive known Ive wanted to work in the media field and become a household name throughout america and abroad. Doing what exactly I wasn't sure at that age. Sooner than later though, I decided I didn't want to be tied down to only one medium but I wanted to explore every art medium humanity had to offer. From music, to movies, from television acting to website design, figure sculpting, and painting. At one point I even decided that if I was going to peruse any of this I'd have to learn to play at least 3 instruments; I chose piano, guitar, and maybe something from the winds family. Knowing this at an early age put me at a slight advantage as a teenager. I was able to work on my craft while my peers were still in shock that puberty was setting in and being lame wasn't cool.

But with all that said, producing relevant art (writing and otherwise) is apparently becoming harder for me as my college experience progresses. Having the thought is one thing, expressing it with fluidity and flawlessly is a whole other. Often times when I write, draw, photograph,etc I am more concerned with the person who is going to be viewing the piece. When instead my concern should be how I want it to come across by utilizing my own emotion to evoke others'.

Pollock

One place I look for inspiration is in magazines, and not typical articles of black and white text, but with articles of clothing. When I browse through fashion magazines automatically my head fills with ides for television shows and motion picture pitches. Also color concepts for paintings or sculpture. Although my imagination is fuming with creativity and excitement I get stuck in the brainstorming stage trying different ways to execute my ideas.

When Im stuck in this phase with no hope of relief or that magical "ah-ha!" moment artist long for; I turn people who can help develop my already great ideas into otherworldly creations. I strongly believe that collaborative efforts elevate any project to its fullest potential. I appreciate harsh feedback and critique the most because it lets me know honestly and respectfully what areas I should work on so that when I'm back at the drawing board I'm fully aware of my previous missteps. Usually after this point I have a product im confident enough to sale to anyone.

"Guernica" Picasso

I say all that to say  that if there is anything your passionate about, pursue it. If its impossible for you to complete your day without visiting the idea of this passion or working on improving it or working on what ever it is, more than likely this is your talent. Each person is gifted in one way or another with no exclusions and it is our duty to share these gifts with the world. It helps too if your being payed for your contribution!

No matter how hard you have to fight, fight to make your dreams your reality.

XXX

After reviewing the article written by Rick Santorum about free speech and internet porn I immediately took a stance. I definitely don't feel that Santorums argument is justified in claiming that our first amendment is being sullied by the vast collection of internet porn the worldwide web has to offer. I feel that freedom of speech should not be denied to anyone, regardless of how they choose to express themselves. Although e-porn has no place on the screens of young children, it discounts the fact that a lot of adults still enjoy these films and sites. By banning them you are stripping these individuals of their basic human rights.

In this instance as an artist myself I find the human form beautiful. I personally don't consider double penetration and gang bangs artistic, whose to say the person responsible for the production doesn't. Our bodies are capable of amazing feats, as human beings we shouldn't be censored on how we choose to display our abilities. As we begin on a road of a more conservative America, we are ripping rights away willy nilly. If all all the things we didn't like or disapproved of were outlawed we wouldn't be enjoying a free country, we would be left with nearly nothing as far as individual expression is concerned. Although pleasing the masses isn't ideal in this situation safer internet searching could be practiced. Maybe if young children are utilizing thir home computer there should be some spyware or parental controls set up. This would be the only preventative measure i see fit. Other than that adults should be free to view as they please.

Heck, with current media trends today, the NSFW line was blurred a long time ago anyways.

DRUGGED OUT FOREVER!!

I just finished a writing assignment I thought would be so difficult!!

Well it wasn’t. I read an article about bipolar and mood disorders and the diagnosis that takes place with young children. This text really sparked my interest because I fall into the audience who this author was targeting. I was diagnosed at a very young age with bi polar disorder. I don’t believe a 7 year old me really knew what this meant, so I assumed it was a scientific term for the mentally insane or crazy. Shortly after being diagnosed my Psychiatrist felt it necessary to place me on a medical regimen while my mother and teachers recorded my behavior for his analysis. I felt like a certifiable lab rat.

After short periods of time my "reviews" were coming back not all too positive so my doses were upped and I began being monitored more heavily. At this point the mixing of medication and stresses of being a 7 year old boy were weighing on me. Only after being heavily medicated did I feel the manic highs and depressive lows the doctors claim they were "fixing." Living with a diagnosis I knew nothing about made me feel ostracized and alone because I thought everyone else would think I was crazy. The medication affected my sleep patterns, mood swings, and even the way interacted socially with my peers and authority. 

After being stripped of my freedoms, completely withdrawn socially and having my bright and witty personality totally removed. I was at least normal enough to attend public school. I felt like a mute zombie. This critical period in my life where being a child was supposed to be fun and enjoyable became an up and down elevator of distress. I have no doubt that this marker in my childhood is still today affecting the way I interact and approach others.

Concerning the children of the future, I feel the best way to determine social inappropriateness should be done at an older age. I believe the fact that some children just aren’t as quiet and reserved as others should be considered before making any conclusions about their mental health. Each human is unique in nature and should be treated as such and most, if not all, social norms should be disregarded when diagnosing behavior in young children.